Feeling Mortal

Today has been a beautiful spring day--warm, sunny, birds twittering--yet I'm feeling uncharacteristically dark and dreary and very mortal. I'm not sure what exactly has triggered these feelings, probably a combination of things. First, my grandmother's memorial is next weekend and she's been on my mind since she passed away last month. Also, at work, I've been working on an order of service for the memorial service of a congregant who was just a year older than me and a church friend has posted several items on Facebook about her high school friend who passed away. I think also I'm deeply concerned for a friend who just returned to the hospital with complications from her January operation. This is her third trip admittance with infection and complications. I am so very scared for her.

Anyway, this afternoon I spoke with my hubby about my feelings. We then worked on what Dave Ramsey calls our loving file. This is a file that lists our wishes in case one of us is to pass away unexpectedly. Although I still feel dark and dreary, I do feel better knowing I have taken such an arduous task away from my loved ones during their time of grief. And I know my husband has his file so I won't have to worry if I am fulfilling his wishes in case something happens to him. More later....

¡Hasta pronto, mis amigos!

~N