Sunday, April 19, 2009

Grandma's Memorial, Sunday 4/19/2009


The day dawned beautiful, just warm enough with bright blue skies and cotton ball clouds, the type of day Florida commercials feature. Everything was packed in the truck, including the family, and we headed north, with just one trip back for a forgotten bathing suit. It had probably been twenty or more years since I’d visited Coquina Beach, the beach my grandmother named in a contest back in the 50’s. I had forgotten about the tall pine trees shading picnic tables and pavilions, the tall grasses waving between beach and parking lot, and, of course, the shell-ridden coast line. Today the Gulf was cold and the waves strong. The lifeguards whistled harshly at any brave soul entering the water outside the swim area. I remember as a child venturing out with Grandma; the water warm and so crystal clear we could see our feet as far out as we could walk. Kyle and I searched the beach, walking in the shallowest waves, and eventually found a few coquinas. Back at the shelter, Uncle Rick churned out pancakes with Dad’s assistance. The littlest kids gobbled up breakfast like a flock of starving chicks. Sunday was also Roger James’ 12th birthday, so we sang and had cake. Family members wandered in and out, catching up on news, reminiscing, going to the beach, flipping through the scrapbook of Grandma’s pictures, or watching the memorial video Trina and I stayed up way too late putting together—a great memorial for a great lady. I think Grandma would have approved.

¡Hasta pronto, mis amigos!

~N

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Easter or Ostara?


Easter is one of the high holy holidays for the Christian faith. Even my atheist father asked me last night what our plans were for Easter. As I reflect on this weekend, I realize we as a family have pretty much dropped this holiday from our traditions. Before I had kids, this was the weekend I treated myself to a new outfit and went to church. Yes, I was a Christmas/Easter Christian. Once the kids came along, we had many many years of coloring boiled eggs and visits from the Easter bunny. Instead of me getting a new outfit, I'd get the kids some new clothes. The community Easter Egg hunts were also on the agenda. Then, I don't remember exactly when, we just dropped it all. My Methodist mother-in-law still celebrates this Holy week with all the church services. Though she doesn't say anything, I get the feeling our ambivalence towards Easter causes her some distress. I think I would feel more at ease celebrating Ostara, celebrating the Spring equinox.

Suddenly I have the urge to color some Easter eggs and celebrate Spring with my family, maybe I'll even read the Bible story of Easter week. ¡Hasta pronto, mis amigos!

~N

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Feeling Mortal

Today has been a beautiful spring day--warm, sunny, birds twittering--yet I'm feeling uncharacteristically dark and dreary and very mortal. I'm not sure what exactly has triggered these feelings, probably a combination of things. First, my grandmother's memorial is next weekend and she's been on my mind since she passed away last month. Also, at work, I've been working on an order of service for the memorial service of a congregant who was just a year older than me and a church friend has posted several items on Facebook about her high school friend who passed away. I think also I'm deeply concerned for a friend who just returned to the hospital with complications from her January operation. This is her third trip admittance with infection and complications. I am so very scared for her.

Anyway, this afternoon I spoke with my hubby about my feelings. We then worked on what Dave Ramsey calls our loving file. This is a file that lists our wishes in case one of us is to pass away unexpectedly. Although I still feel dark and dreary, I do feel better knowing I have taken such an arduous task away from my loved ones during their time of grief. And I know my husband has his file so I won't have to worry if I am fulfilling his wishes in case something happens to him. More later....

¡Hasta pronto, mis amigos!

~N